Repentance

We have been having a lot of talks about repentance lately. I don't think that's the assigned topic, but it has been a focus. It has been great because they're the kind of talks that deal with the realities of daily living and how relying on God to help us in our efforts to grow blesses our lives. They are not the kind of talks where there is fear-mongering, trying to throw everyone into a panic about becoming perfect RIGHT NOW. Failure is part of the developmental process.

This is a principle I am trying to remember in my new job. I have been in my assignment about a month following a couple of weeks of training. I keep making mistakes and not remembering things I have been told. More than once. So I am frustrated with myself. I am trying also to be gentle with myself. Of course, I am not trying to make mistakes. Usually I just need to slow down, give my brain a little more time to remember or figure it out. As much as I like to check things off, I want to get them right so my supervisor doesn't have to redo them for me. Thankfully, he is always in teaching mode, not in reprimand mode. It's refreshing after my high-conflict divorce. And really, I am plenty good at feeling like an idiot without any help.

I got to substitute in Primary as the music leader today. It went okay. The time goes by amazingly fast. In senior Primary we sang A Child's Prayer. I was supposed to lead the half of the room singing verse 1, but I got mixed up halfway through and drifted into the second verse. Truthfully, that's the part I usually sing during the duet. I laughed and it was fine.

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