Sustaining

We had a lovely fast and testimony meeting. The bishop invited us to pray for confirmation of our new stake president's calling. That's easier for me to do than to feel confident in his counselors. It's an opportunity for them to learn from someone genuinely loving and kind, I suppose, and for me to expand my sustaining capacity. My emotions have been close to the surface after my encounter with Ben last night. Nevertheless, I realize that I need to watch my thoughts more closely to draw them back to the things I need to work on myself. Those are the things I can control.

We talked about Pr. Eyring's talk "The Power of Sustaining Faith" in Relief Society. There was some good discussion, including a note that sustaining includes providing additional insight or information when we see something we think should be different, as long as we're motivated by love, encouragement, and shared interest in success rather than a spirit of criticism and knowing better.

I feel grateful that I got my ministering brother in the divorce. He and his wife have welcomed me into their home to spend time with their family many times. I called last night when I was sobbing after Ben left my front porch and was invited over to talk. I talked some about the situation, but it was really just that the interaction brought back 20 years of my perspective not mattering, of being the loser and being told to like it as if that were a measure of goodness. I value their friendship, and my brother's readiness to offer me a blessing whenever I ask.

This morning before church I emailed the YW secretary. She had included an activity "with the Priesthood" in her weekly email message last Sunday. I felt good about explaining to her why "with the young men" or "with the Aaronic priesthood quorums" was a better choice of description. She is new in the ward and in the calling, so it was a little risky since I don't know her. Still, I predicted my frustration and resentment of the inaccuracy persisting and growing if I had to read it week after week without having said something at the outset. More circumspect language teaches more correct doctrine. Pr. Oaks has my back on this one.


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